I have never fucking felt like this before. I have never lost this much hope in everything i’ve ever fucking cared about. You promised me that you’d never put your hands on me. You promised that you’d never treat me like that. Today had to be one of the worst days ever. I don’t know where I’m staying for 3 months, I don’t know what i’m going to do, I don’t know what’s going to happen. This is just to hard. This is not going to get better. This is where I lose it. This is where I realize that nothing is getting better. This is where I truly give up. I’m done. I’m done with you, with us, with this place, this city, just all of this. There is only so much hurt you can take from someone before you feel like I do. I did what I did tonight because I didn’t want you to fucking pass out from drinking to much. I didn’t want you to get hurt. But no, I’m just some piece of shit who’s purpose is to make you mad. You will never fucking see everything I’ve ever fucking done for you. Everything that I’ve fucking sacrificed for you. I never fucking deserved any of the shit you did to me, all of the pain, all of the tears. None of it.  One day, I’ll realize that  this happened for a reason. I’ll be ok. I’ll be fine. This too shall pass. But for right now, if you ever read this, I want you to know, that no one will ever care about you as much as I did. No one will go through the stuff I went through for you. I loved you so much. But you lost me. You lost the person that was there for you when no one else was. No one.